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After a good 4 months of being a brunette (/blonde as well, my damaged Asian hair does not retain colour well after 4 bleach jobs), I recently decided to undertake yet another bleach job and now my hair is officially grey/silver/greyish silver. Technically speaking, my dream hair colour would be platinum blonde + silver + pastel blue/purple, but I am way too afraid of hair breakage to attempt anything now.

Hair breakage is so real guys. As you can see from the above picture, I got my hair ends trimmed as well. And only at the salon did I realise that the hair on the left side of my head have broken off quite a fair bit in the mid portions. Not to mention the amount of hair fall after every hair wash.. scary stuff. Do I regret going silver though?

Absolutely not.

Just a few words of caution if you’re thinking of taking the plunge:

  • Know Your Hair – Whether it is damaged or not, you know it. And if it is, try to lay off the bleaching till your hair is healthier.
  • Be Practical – Following up on the above point; not saying it’s impossible to go from black to silver in one sitting, but it’s NEARLY impossible to go from black to silver, and not induce severe damage to your hair to the point of no return.
  • Be Committed – I take really good care of my hair. Even more so than my face. Weird, I know. Invest in hair serums, hair oils, a good shampoo and conditioner. I am talking about everyday routine of shampoo + condition + treatment + leave-in hair oils. You really need to replenish all the moisture that was stripped from your hair, else you’ll just end up with straws for hair.
  • NEVER attempt to bleach your hair on your own – Unless you’re a hair stylist or the likes. I have coloured my hair on my own, but bleaching is a whole new ball game. If you don’t wish to chemically burn your scalp, please leave bleaching to the professionals.


I don’t know a lot of things. Or rather, I don’t know as much as I would like to think I wish I did. When it comes to deciding exactly what you want to pursue, it’s either you go with what you absolutely love, or what you know you are good at. I don’t love anything enough to learn / practise till I’m good at it. Which definitely isn’t a good thing. And I’m trying to change that. I’m trying to stick to learning one thing, and not be so half-assed all the time. What I do know about myself is that anything that contributes to a beautiful life, I want to pursue. And to me, anything that is real, that is unafraid to express raw emotions, is beautiful. In a world where everything is a facade.. rawness is beauty. Music that is able to portray different perspectives; pictures that convey a certain kind of feeling; films that make you stop and really think about life..

I want to be able to create something that motivates, that encourages thinking, that is able to showcase a different perspective.

Side note, Tame Impala is slaying it with their new album. I hope its not blasphemous if I were to say that I think Currents is the best of all their 3 albums.


This Is How I’ll Date You

Thought Catalog


I’ll date you because I choose to. I will desire you with every dawn and I will desire you with every dusk. I will date you because you make me laugh, because despite your flaws and your temperaments, my heart feels safe within your hands. I will date you and I will pay no mind to the alternative, I will turn a blind eye to the people who stare because my gaze was made for your gaze. In this generation option creeps into relationships like a dangerous siren, but I will never be swayed by its song, for when I date you, I will date only you.

I will date you in a forgetful way. I wont be able to recall the time you were born, or your mothers middle name. I will forget mini anniversaries, I will forget appointments. However, I will never forget the way you looked when…

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This Is How I’ll Date You


Social Media.

The dawn of a new age. The road to hell is paved with good intentions. What started out as a digital platform for people to exchange ideas and share information has now turned into a competition of sorts.. It all comes in phases, for example (example only, ctfo) now it’s all #teamcozy #whateverishyperightnow…

Why do you even care?

Everyone seems like a copy of a copy of a copy. Why?

Do you do what you do because you really like the lifestyle, the product, whatever it is..? Or simply because right now that’s what everyone else is going on about?

As you scroll through your platforms, it’s just same shit, just different handles. Well good job! You’re now part of the system! You can do shit that 1 million other people can do!

What makes you, you?

So now everyone else around you is sporting their other half, what do you do? Get someone and flaunt it all over your platforms too? Wow, if that’s your reason for a relationship, that’s just fucking sad and I feel sorry for you.


If you can’t even deal with being alone, what makes you think you’re capable of being with someone else? And caring for them, loving them.. Too many people think love is just love. Liking someone is easy. Having the hots for them, feelings for them, is fucking easy. But really being there for them, that’s a whole other story altogether.

And the problem with this whole situation, what ties it all back together, is the fact that it seems like all these displays of.. affection.. are they even real? Or just so you have something to post on your Instagram?

“I have nothing to post on Instagram, we need to go on photowalks soon..”

Dude, what does that even mean!? Why you forcing shit that ain’t there in the first place?

You’re being pressured that your following on Instagram, the number of ‘likes’ you get per photo, or how popular/well-known you are on Instagram validates your existence, hey you know what?


Seriously, fuck them politics, fuck them competition, you all talk so much shit about being real, but you don’t know shit about being real.

I think I’ve seen enough from an outsider’s point of view, it’s just.. so disgusting.

Getting inspiration from someone with skills is cool. Full-on replicating is not.

Doing something because it genuinely happened is cool. Faking it, is not.

Taking pride in your feed is cool. Being utterly obsessed with it, is so fucking sad.

People these days…



the dream is gone. and I have become comfortably numb.


“I can’t explain, you would not understand.” 

I don’t think anyone will ever understand how it feels like to feel so much all the time. How I can be totally alright one second, and just be totally crushed the next.. for no apparent reason at all. Is it normal to feel an overwhelming sense of sadness for no reason at all? Because I do.

In no way am I trying to romanticize depression, or just generally sadness. Why would I voluntarily choose sadness over being happy? Why? But I just am this way.. and sometimes I do feel like I have to hide the fact that I do think a lot, and I do feel a lot, just so people won’t feel heavy around me.. 



In all honesty, I have been feeling an increasing amount of uncertainty ever since the passing of Mr Lee Kuan Yew. The internet is rife with articles, social media posts, and now even videos showcasing both ends of the spectrum; do you respect him? do you not?

I’ve always been the kind to agree to disagree. You can’t force feed someone else your opinions. And I am sure they have their own valid reasons why they chose to believe certain way. However, I think there are certain instances where people just believe a certain way for the sake of believing it. To put it across in the simplest way of analogy: I queue for llaollao because everyone’s queuing for llaollao OR I hate llaollao, it’s overrated and (I think I’m cool) I don’t follow trends.


As I mentioned on my Twitter a day ago, I am neither pro-PAP, nor am I pro-Opposition. Simply because that wasn’t the point in the first place. I am pro-Singapore, which means I (want to be able to be) am discerning with my choices on who is capable to run the country.

And should that not be the mentality of every Singaporean? Does it really matter if the person who runs the country is from PAP, or is he/she is from the opposition as long as he/she is doing something constructive (backed with meticulous research and thinking from all angles) towards a better Singapore?


I was a core History student in my Secondary School years. In our third year, we had to study the entire history of Singapore. I felt that to know your country, you need to know its history. &perhaps that is the point that our generation, my generation, is missing out on.

Lee Kuan Yew. His passing has affected millions in our country, including me. Before you jump to your own conclusion that these people are brainwashed by the government, have you ever wondered why so? Why would our fellow Singaporeans (young to old) be moved to tears knowing that he is no longer around? What exactly has he done throughout his entire lifetime to warrant such an outpour of emotions nationwide (and worldwide, mind you)?

To be absolutely frank with you, on the morning that he passed, I was jolted awake by the news. My father came into my room at approximately 7am, shook me gently and said “Lee Kuan Yew passed away already.” My eyes sprang wide open, and I turned on my side and reached out for my phone. Google. Instagram. Facebook. Twitter. Channel News Asia. News of his passing splashed across every single platform. Reading little anecdotes, tributes and watching the news got me tearing up. And then the 8am broadcast on CNA where our current PM Lee Hsien Loong made the announcement (particularly the mandarin version), and I totally broke down. And that was me, tearing up every now and then, all the way till the afternoon.

Call me sensitive, but I respect Lee Kuan Yew a hell lot. From the very little that I read and heard about, 50 years ago, he stepped up and led a team of equally amazing people to build up what we know as Modern Singapore.

I have just started on his book, Hard Truths to keep Singapore going, and I must say that it has been very insightful so far.

…the main reason he had agreed to this unprecedented series of interviews was to help strengthen in Singaporeans the survival instinct that he feared would be threatened by the very success of his work.”

In it, he explains through a series of interviews why Singapore is what it is now; why certain policies are in place; and why we shouldn’t compare our country to any other country, no matter how similar our situations are; and of course, what kind of democracy are we under. I will not attempt to regurgitate information from within, because I feel every Singaporean should have a vested interest in the future of our country. It’s easy to read the opinions of others, but the flaw in that is that their opinions will then shape yours, and what if their opinion isn’t based on facts? When you make your financial/property investments, do you just listen to what others tell you, or do you at least find out what you are investing in on your own?

I am here, not to sway your opinion whichever way. I am here to implore my fellow Singaporeans, do not take everything you read online for what it is. This is Singapore. This is our country. And we are an extremely small country. One wrong move, one mistake, could unravel all that our forefathers have managed to achieve for the past 50 years. When you question certain policies, please bear in mind the implications in a wider angle. Please do not just look at everything at a macro level.

Ask not what your country can do for you, what can you contribute to your country?

Stop spreading hate, and start thinking on your own, for your own.